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*10-30-00* 6:17 pm:
this is what c0rr wrote a while back...

i lay here, thoughts parting from my body...
shrouded by thoughtless, overwhelming emotion.
consciously dreaming, potentially scheming.
you have damaged me.
i am a toy, used yet again.
you care not for my inner self, only your own wishes.
i am broken.
sadness drives my brain to insanity now.
i can't take it much longer.
sleeping wide awake, can't control my feelings.
i feel separated.
i needed you; you were there for someone else.
tears are not planned and powerful.
feeling pressure on my chest,
and a sinful sinking feeling.
i am derived from doom,
contimplating the taste of copper on a stale tounge.
breathe in, breathe out.
i am alone now.

this i took from c0rr's page.... upsetting yes?

i'm different.
10-30-2000 (9:15am/est) tim


kat cheated on me and dumped me. again. after being back together after a few days. yippie. i'm fscking ecstatic. in English a few mins ago, we were told to write down whatever came to mind for 20 lines, and 20 points. here's what i wrote.



head spinning... confused. mentality crushed by your point of view.
devoid of emotion... appealed to devotion.
If anger's just a state of mind, how the hell could i be so blind?
stripped of pride, greed, little thought and corruption, we are NOTHING.
even though no relationship, we are conected. (through pain and pleasure we are together)
ugh, you kicked my ass.
why do i try? why do i exist, when i could just die? everything that could be... i have experienced. If this is the best time of my life, remember to shoot me after the "good times" are done.
Blah. this sucks. I'm just writing to fill up space.
keen sense of apathy... a clever sense of demise. who knows how you appear in other people's eyes?
illumination... i wish you to guide me through this space of absolute nothingness... i can't feel anymore.
immune to pain... addicted to pleasure? or am i immune to pleasure and addicted to pain?
it's sick, really. this shady thing called, "life."
constructed by darkness.... of an evil nature.
my soul is bound in human flesh and blood. what about yours?
i want my liver pierced.
kill me or something... BLAH.
yikes...! i'm disturbed...! help me! Oh yeah, that's right... YOU DON'T CARE.


dimmy
well, what can i do but say i'm sorry?
not much.
actually nothing.
tis done.
over.
i barged into your life.
chaos, pain, anger.
fucked up again.
i'm sorry.

a smoke
You say it's like nicotine
and all you can do is dream
don't talk and it makes you scream
inside.
can't run
so you try to hide
but you know now
that what i say is true
do you know what you have to do
to make it alright.

in your fucking head
you say you wish you were dead
but there's so much coming
and you'll have to stop running
you know this deep inside
there isn't any reason to hide
but still you run away.

there is a secret i know
a secret you should learn
don't disregard my concern
i don't want you to go
please don't runaway
this secret is
someday.

someday you'll know
what you need
then you'll realize
it's just not me
and you'll be satisfied
with the choice i make today
then you'll know
there's no reason to runaway.

in your fucking head
you say you wish you were dead
but there's so much coming
and you'll have to stop running
but you'll know this and know its the only way
you'll know it someday.

we both know it's inevitable

ROMANCE

Results: Sagittarius & Taurus
When Taurus and Sagittarius come together, they both need to give each other time to learn about the energy of the relationship. Both partners have a great deal to gain from knowing each other! While Sagittarius thrives on variety and novelty, Taurus is often content with security and tradition. Early in the relationship, Taurus may desire more than Sagittarius is ready to give, but if Taurus is willing to be patient, Sagittarius will learn to appreciate the comforts of hearth and home.

Taurus and Sagittarius have different approaches to life; Taurus is more sedate and practical and Sagittarius is the restless explorer. It can be hard for Sagittarius to accept the down to earth, fixed approach of Taurus. It might be difficult for Taurus to accept the Sagittarius restlessness. Taurus can offer Sagittarius a secure base and keep them on track with their dreams and ambitions. Sagittarius can help Taurus add variety and fun, bringing new stimulation into each day.

Taurus is ruled by Venus and Sagittarius is ruled by Jupiter. Venus is about love, beauty, and luxury. Jupiter is philosophy, higher learning, expansion, optimism, luck and travel. Together this combination of beauty and expansion, masculine and feminine energy is why they admire and can sustain each other.

Taurus is an Earth Sign and Sagittarius is a Fire Sign. Sagittarius wants space to move, while Taurus wishes for security and stability. Sagittarius initiates projects from pure feeling and impulse, while Taurus is more practical. Although these partners may find it difficult to understand where the other is coming from, when they work together they make an excellent business team because of their complementary approaches. They will not always be in accordance about every issue. But as long as they reassure each other that the relationship is important to both of them, their conflicts can usually be resolved.

Taurus is a Fixed Sign and Sagittarius is a Mutable Sign. Taurus tends to be down-to-earth and focused on one project at a time, Sagittarius likes variety, and thus has different motivations. Sagittarius likes to move from project to project as the feeling takes them. If Sagittarius sees the benefit of Taurus' undertakings, then they will be more than willing to participate. In turn, Taurus needs to give Sagittarius the freedom to enjoy other things too. Taurus can make Sagittarius ideas produce something even if Sagittarius has moved on; Sagittarius can show Taurus that flexibility is sometimes better than a set path and a Fixed determination.

The best aspect of the Taurus-Sagittarius relationship is the new perspective they can give each other once each partner becomes familiar with the other's differences. They make a wonderful business team once they open themselves to each other. As long as they communicate with each other, and appreciate their differences theirs will be a stable and happy relationship.

Take heed!

Love-O-Meter has calculated your results.

Ali & Tim, this is your relationship:
Every once in a while, Love-O-Meter calculates a couple of names that create beautiful music together. Right now, it's hearing a symphony.

If you two were a pastry, you'd be an apple strudel. Flaky and fun on the outside, sweet and wholesome on the inside. With careful handling, you will stay fresh long after the others have gone stale.

You have silenced Love-O-Meter with your perfection.

kat-atonic